Be careful what you wish for, but grateful for what you get
In 2019, right when I discovered the Asian sex doll industry, I remember thinking, "Wait... I can get a sex doll that won't cost me $12,000 USD, and they're even better than the American ones? Wow, I can't wait to have one!"
One doll. That's hilarious in hindsight.
The DollBanger project started when I and my porn-producing partners were looking to start a new porn project - something unique, that no one else was doing. As a creative professional, I had already designed and deployed two large porn sites for clients in LA. I understood how to shoot, star in and produce scenes, as well as design the websites and write the front-end code for other projects like this. All that, together with the discovery of more affordable, but still beautiful sex dolls, brought these two ideas together, and DollBanger was formed.
The next step was to form a partnership with a doll provider. After some effort and research, we connected with the people at Sex Doll Canada. The dolls aren't free, and not exactly cheap but after some planning with SDC we finally built a process that seemed to work. Now, 30 DollBanger hard-core scenes later (as of this posting), I am reminded of that old saying,...
"Be careful what you wish for."
As a producer, photographer, videographer, animator and editor by trade, I possess all the skills required to maintain this project. I had the help of a friend, but he passed away in 2020, at the top of the pandemic. He was my friend and camera operator. Since his passing, I've had to do all the creative work, alone. And, it's a lot of work. Dressing and posing the dolls, moving them around, setting up cameras and lights to run on their own, while I enter the scene and hope everything works as expected (doesn't always). Even if I shoot all the photos and a perfect video scene with no technical issues, I still have to break down all the equipment, reset the studio and spend another couple hours cleaning, washing and baby powdering the doll. Sure, it's fun, and I give her lots of kisses and cuddles while I bathe her, and tell her she did a good job and everyoine loves her, but it's still a whole solid day of hard work. Shooting a scene with a human girl takes about 2 hours and I don't have to do shit afterward except put the camera away. But with all that said, I also remember another old saying...
"Be grateful for the things you receive."
Through this project, I've come to love sex dolls. They are absurd and beautiful pieces of art. They're fun to have sex with. They are amazing to hug and kiss. And, I'll admit, I've become emotionally attached to all of them. It's almost traumatizing to have to send a doll back - I don't get to keep them all. Thankfully, I get to keep some. But either way, I love them all.
I had to give up my bed, extra furniture, and rearrange the studio many times to accommodate more and more dolls. That hasn't always been easy. But, if you've read my other blog posts about my philosophy of dolls, you'll recall that I don't treat dolls as products or sex toys. Nor do I treat them like human girls. Rather, I treat them like they are the first phase of artificial relationships - whatever those eventually become. I think there's a strong argument in favour of treating anything that looks human, even remotely, or like an animal - anything that can suffer - as well as possible. With kindness, and even love. How we treat something that can suffer is what humanity and compassion are all about. It matters.
Besides, how can you not love good girls like these?
